VanessaTgL

I was reading this article, and to me it was a very interesting experience to read about it specially after I read some of the comments on it.. Then When the comments started getting or turning Negative, that is where I got freaked out.. Why? Because me a 36 year old and a U.S. Marine Corps Veteran of 17 years, has and is going thru my own experience. I am also married and to my surprise the best and most support I am getting is coming from my lovely wife.

The problem that I have is that unlike Debbie here, I never expected to suddenly become or see me as Vanessa especially at my current age. I have always been a ladies man, very Masculine, and except for one fetish-crossdressing-funny occasion with my wife, I suddenly became extremely interested in crossdressing in November 2008, and shortly after quickly realize that it was a whole lot more then just dressing for me.

At first I was confuse, but slowly started to realize that the reason everything seem so natural for me was because am transgender. Even my wife is amaze on how natural I look and move for someone that has been at this for just a couple of months. The problem is that as I go further into things, I can only evolve to a certain point, been a US Marine is not helping the situation, and unfortunately, if I do come out to the open or the wrong person finds out about me, the first thing most people will assume is that am gay, when am not..

So as anyone can imagine, FEAR and the LACK of UNDERSTANDING is what concerns me. Am sure that I’m not the only one, and because the way some people react or could react, could make my life worst then it already is since am already feeling like I have to leave in a shoe box or else.. In the Military from what I know there is not specific rules about transgender people, so coming out to the open will KILL my career and keep me from been able to at least retired peacefully..

Funny thing is that as mention before, there are lots of people out there serving as Police Officers and Firemen who are transgender,, but there is hardly any mention about the GREEN side.. MILITARY individuals that are doing more then most people can imagine.. But anyways, I do wish Debbie well,, and I can only hope I will be able to face my destiny without worrying about been discriminated against and pushed to the side as a 2nd class citizen. I would feel like KRAP if after all I've done in my life and what I have done in the Military, in the end I get treated like sheeat just because there is no understanding.

I don’t expect any especial treatment, all I want is to be respected and be treated fairly.